Thursday, October 30, 2008

Dance with Me

Take me away, I'm lost
Drowning myself slowly looking for answers to questions never asked
A piece of me is floating on a river to the sea
Lost and gone forever and broken heart of me
Dance away the pain I feel inside
The wickedness I still conceal
My heart opens to one less perfect then the one whom holds the key
Drown my sorrows one more night, one more time
Take me away and I won't fight
Because all this world is locked inside my soul
And I give nothing back... and I give everything

Awake oh sleeper and kill the day
My mountain side monster, that bastard within me
Take heart and hold on tight to everything I feel
But lock away my fear and replace it with the great hope
Ask me not what's wrong, but hold me close
I wait for peace and love, for a countryside view
Of sunshine on my face, of moonlight spreading grace
This puzzle broken heart put together as one

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Fight of Relapse

Focus the image, I'll never come back
Breaking this cycle of needed relax
But the right of myself is lost in the day
Forever a dreamer with little to say
Oh wake my mind and give new life
To the pen and paperless simple of kind
A new generation of laziness breeds
This fire and anger and passion in me
But to do, oh God what do I say
To a people who looks to much like me

Monday, October 27, 2008

"Maybe the Lord will act on our behalf"

Take hold of me and let me breathe
For the fear is still gripping tightly
A shattered dream, I'm afraid I'll come
But there's more to me then this run down job
A purpose in life is all I ask
Yet you've handed me this life long task
Failure lurks within my mind
So I don't dare step out where you're by my side
"Maybe the Lord will act on our behalf"
Or maybe I'll die, or worse, they'll all laugh
It's not that I don't think it's true
This calling that runs through and through
But the fear that some will mock my name
Is causing me to bring you shame

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

The Price of Beauty

Star light, Star bright
I've captured your radiance here tonight
A look around and the things I see
Do very little to interest me
But the glow I saw when I looked at you
Alone in the sky, I knew it was true
That hope was found in the oddest places
And have you I would, I swore to myself
So the journey began to catch a star
And alas I found it not very hard
The years I've focus all my love
My energy, the desires of heart
To making your beauty only mine
I took you from the world you shined
Ashamed I offer my mistake
To the world to mock me, my created fate

Monday, September 15, 2008

A sailor's letter home

If i was lost at sea with no hope in sight,
I'd send a message in a botle addressed to you.
And the simple note would read "I love you."
In my fleeting moments it would be your face, your memory on my mind.

Monday, September 08, 2008

She Always Wears My Favorite Color

Divided I wake, thy soul unturned
The blessing of caught, of shunned, of burned
Leave now the murderers, flee the scene
Judgment is coming to rapture thee
Alas a new mystery, shrouded in black
Comes calling my name, seductive attack
Run though I must, leaves little unchanged
A new set of problems but my heart is the same

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Let This Be a Lesson to The One That Gets Away

I find it very comforting when you talk like that
But your eyes can't hide the frustration inside
So take a step back and listen to lies
Then justify yourself and only to yourself
That words you said meant anything
Anything more then a 10 cent cigarette
That calmed the nerve for the first drag... and nothing after

Drink up, drink up, all your demon friends yelled
So you walked to the bar, your own personal hell
My heart left unchanged and your voice still untrue
But when I walk away, your feelings turn blue
The sorrow now left by my footprint impression
A stain on your soul, yet you learned not a lesson

Oh hardened heart wake up and scream
Today is the day when winter fades to spring
Alas it is coming, the day of your new
Too bad I won't see it, I've broken us too.

Monday, August 25, 2008

40 days worth of poetry

Not really. I did write a handful of poems during my 40 day fast that I will now share.


"A Whisper on the Breeze"

Sadness will infect the mind
And sickness pass comes in due time
Along the roof a whisper carries
On the wind his words to her
You're beautiful
And you are Loved


"The Secret's That Won't Share Themselves"

Her precious past a mystery
The shattered tears of history
A road so painful, so alone
Apart from it she hasn't grown
A hand reached out to take her place
And share the emotion upon her face
She turns her head revealing not
While my aching heart leaves bruised and crushed


"My Heart Screams for Something More Then This Failed Life I Keep"

I feel exposed beyond belief
These paper walls are not discreet
The broken bones of my soul
I have no reason to be told
But through the tears I hear her voice
As in her little frame she holds
My trembling, crying body
With a love I've never known


"The Moment That Seemed to Last Forever"

There is a place I retreat
In the beauty of your love
And I find myself at peace
Awaiting grace above
My heart explodes in singing
In laughter and in tears
I feel myself awaken
In your everlasting arms

All Else Failed

The shattered remains are falling like glass
A glint of hesitation, afraid of what I might ask
The turning of tides has already past
As I sit on the pier, am I really the last?

Tomorrow a shadow of failure unknown
The death of my right hand, the name unbeknownst
Glimmer a spot of blood that was shed
Now empty life floods a voice in my head

A murder so cruel but what's to be done
The need left by one life consumed by new blood
The hearts broken murder
Replaced by new love

Monday, July 07, 2008

Falling of Deaf Ears

Stabs of painted light stand still
Gazing shadows walk faster till
The sound of silence lends a part
The very nature of this art
A glimmer of hope yet all consumed
The very one is chosen still
To bring a message painted black
The ears that fall upon won't last
But somewhere in the smoke filled crowd
An open mind will soon reveal
The meaning to the broken tale
A fragmented line no longer stale
A half drunk soul will leave tonight
With a sense of purpose, that all is right

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Her Smiled Warmed My Heart and Her Words Spoke of Hope

I've been running for so long looking for a safe place
But discomfort never seems to far behind
I'm hiding in the shadows looking for a glimpse of hope
And out the corner of my eye the sun does start to show
So without looking back at a starless past
I run into the warmth of the brightly glowing one

Monday, May 26, 2008

Sing Once for Me

Give me a reason to leave but I won’t take it
At this moment without you, I wouldn’t make it
Try with your might to push me away
But an opportunity is all I can say
The moment so sweet with you in my arms
But I want your trust, I promise no harm
My heart in a box, I offer and ask
For you to take it, but not just to smash
The angels in heaven could sing me a song
But a day without you, I’d still feel all wrong
The smile you see, you placed on my lips
And the words I bring now, I ask not to twist
The moments with you are precious but few
And I recall every moment as if it were knew
My ways are not perfect but for you I would change,
My life for the better, if you’d still feel the same
So sing once for me and hold your hand
In a second I’d take it and not let you land,
Alone on the floor with no where to turn
I promise my darling together we’d burn
These words said in honest I give now to you
And please take my honor, that these things are true.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Maybe They Will Sing for Us Tomorrow

This is a piece I wrote while listening to the new Hammock record.


"Moments feel endless, as angels pass unaware
Their songs once filling heaven, now stifle in dead air
We all mourn the passing of a day long since gone
The mouths of the poets echo confused song
Still I whisper a shout that is heard by not one
And I keep coming back to a love holding on
Creep though I may, through broken hallway glass
I want just to be near, though not to see when I pass
Mistake of my heart, mistake of the day
From beginning of Winter, till this day in May
My footsteps are heard in the big empty house
A look and a smile and I feel like a louse
I fix my gaze away, ashamed and despaired
But in the moment of stillness, there’s forgiveness in the air
With tear filled eyes I run through the streets
A new joy in spirit, no sense of defeat
With the dawn of the day, the rise of the sun
Comes a moment to redeemed my life I have ruined
Maybe there is hope through my sorrow
Maybe they will sing for us tomorrow.

Monday, April 28, 2008

At 5, The City Sleeps

I wish the night would last forever
And I would hold you in my arms
But the mornings dawn is closer still
Alas my love, I leave at will
Knowing come tomorrow's sun
It's your eyes my mind's set upon
And I'll wait until we meet again
To hold once more my love and friend

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

A Song for...

"You are grace in understanding
A whisper in my pain filled world
The joy that takes my breathe away
A light amid the pearls

The love shines through at night
And in his heart, you take delight
An angel smile across your lips
And my life feels so alive"

Sunday, April 13, 2008

I Feel in Love on a Metro Train

As conversation died on that rainy night
We rode the train north ward, to conclude our time
The drone of the engine and coffee breath
You lay your head against my neck
In silence we rode sitting close to each other
And I would not have asked for another
To share this moment with this eve
Then the pretty young girl sleeping next to me.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Lament

Time has brought me back to this empty pier
Where I first set sail so many years ago
To find a place I'd never seen before
Well all that time I'd left a love ignored
Her once star lit eyes have dulled with age
And her love for me and flame now dead
As we faced each other this one last time
We both can see that our love has died
And I the murderer that faithful day
When I left her heart at dock on the bay.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Lost in Paris

Salvation is here but you fled the scene
And I look for a friend but all I find are these four walls.
The freedom you spoke of has yet to arrive
I just feel trapped and lost inside
This great peace hasn't shown up yet
And freedom in Christ, seems choked out yet
There's a glimmer of hope at the end of each day
If only someone was around to cast it my way
I know there's something more in this life with Christ
But you abandoned me to a church full of flies
And I'm looking hard, and harder still
To find this powerful God and his will
But this place is full of hypocrites and liars
And my sin to them makes me stink of bile
So I pray and pray and I call out to God
To save my soul from being a fraud
And bring me into amazing grace
I'd feel you shining down on my face
I know you're out there and so much more
Then this four wall black mail, chains on doors
So far I flee from this wicked place
And finally I find your sweet embrace

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Nothing in This World Feels Right

"It seems every minute spent away is a moment to many
And this night I have seen that my moments are few
So I sit on the edge of this beach you have made
Praying for hours that you'd take me away

Take me away to land far away
Something like Oz that most people call heaven
A fairy tale love in a fairy tale world
With a preposterous God
That I'd call mine own"

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Tears of an Angel

In a garden over grown
I'm sure I've seen it all
And I sit wondering to myself
Is this it?

Then I look up by the rose bush
To see an angel alone
And as I venture my way closer
I hear her tiny sobs

I sit down right beside her
Not knowing what to say
She's a broken angel
And I'm just a man

The moment lasts for hours
As the sun makes it's way to bed
When she finally turns to me
And lays her precious head.

In her rest I see quite clearly
Why she was crying all alone
She's my guardian angel
And I'm her broken boy.