I went to church this evening. To my surprise Dr. Frank Pedera was speaking. I always enjoy it when he preaches. He was talking about being content with what we have. His example was the children of Isreal in the dessert after they had been freed from Egypt. God provided water, food, guidance, everything they needed and all they did was complain. It got me thinking.

I've been looking for a new job lately. The main reason has been to make more money. I loe my job. I also really hate my job. The work is good, and the people aree great. Awesome creative enviorment. I couldn't really ask for better. The problem is I work really hard, putting out R-rated trash for pennies. I want to move away from Maryland (although this week I've second thoughts but that's I different topic). I'd really like to move out of my house. I'd really like to find a job in music. All these reasons are for me.

So I came to this conclusion. I'm a selfish bastard. I have a good job where I can be creative and do something I like doing. The fact that I am able to have a job in the recording industry is great. I have a place to stay with cheap rent. I'm pretty healthy. I have good friends. I have my family. I came to see that I have a pretty good life. That God has blessed me with so much and my selfishness over the last couple of months has really blocked all the good out.

I thank God that he loves me and sent his son to die for me. I'm thankful for my family. I'm really thankful for my friends. I'm thankful for my small church family and the encouragement they've given me. I am thankful for my job. I need to start bitching less and be more thankful for all the awesome things God has blessed me with.