Oh, if today God should call you away
What would you give in exchange for your soul


I was listening to LN's "Dirt Floor Hotel Part 1" in the car today. A beautiful piece of music. This song came on and I really started to dwell on this thought.

Lately I've been really concerned with doing God's will. Making sure I'm where he wants me and that I'm doing what I've been called to do. My biggest fear is getting to heaven and finding out I've totally messed up God's plan for me. When I think about the possibility of moving and taking another job, it really worries me that it will be the wrong one. That I'll miss the voice of God on this one. I know I've been given a rough vision from God and I can see where part of it will be fulfilled without me there but there's always that part of me that wants to be there for MY vision. But that's not always God's plan.

Paul is always talking in his letters about going to visit the churches he helped start. Most of the time he never gets there. He wanted to get to Rome but had to be shipwrecked first. What a discouragement. But Paul never got discouraged.

Jason Martin wrote a brilliant song called "Give Up the War."

"I read what they write, God's men of before. It's simply that I am still afriad to give up the war. I've played all the chords, and I guess I got bored. I wanna do it right, be someone like Paul.It's simply that he was not afraid, he never gave up the war. And to live when you're down, and live when you're always leaving. I wanna be things. Always living, pressing on. "

Peter is my favorite of the disciples. He was never afraid to stand up and do bold things. But he never got it. 3 times he said he didn't know who Jesus was. And this guy was the founder of the Christian church.

Our life on earth is so short and I'm glad that I'm consummed with trying to be in God's will. If I wasn't then what would be the point. When I get to heaven one day I want to be told that God is proud of me and the things I did for him. No matter how big or small.

"So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and steady, always enthusiastic about the Lord's work, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless."
1 Corinthians 15:58